I was always here for you, even when I wasn't.
There are moments, tiny moments, when you're being completely obnoxious that I think to myself, 'Life would be so much easier and calm without him.' And then I look at you, and I couldn't even imagine a day without you. So yes, you're annoying and it drives me completely crazy. But baby, there's no where else for me. I'd rather lay in your arms annoyed as hell than be perfectly content alone.
*mine*
Today is enough. You don't need forever and always. You don't need promises of days that never come. Today is enough. You don't need the words that cannot possibly be true. Nothing is forever. Nothing lasts for always. Today should always be enough.
*I do believe this to my very core*
I am one of the searchers. There are, I believe, millions of us. We are not unhappy, but neither are we really content. We continue to explore life, hoping to uncover its ultimate secret. We continue to explore ourselves, hoping to understand. We like to walk along the beach. We are drawn by the ocean, taken by its power, its unceasing motion, its mystery and unspeakable beauty. We like forests and mountains, deserts and hidden rivers, and the lonely cities as well. Our sadness is as much a part of our lives as is our laughter. To share our sadness with one we love is perhaps as great a joy as we can know - unless it be to share our laughter.
So what, I've got a smile on. But it's hiding the quiet superstitions in my head. Don't believe me when I say I've got it down.
I don't want a fairytale ending with you. I want to be there to help you face your fears and to help you overcome your failures. I want to give you the kind of love that's not distorted and fabricated, but real, raw, and honest. You're not perfect, and neither am I. But when we're together I can believe that things will always fall into place.
He looked down at the ground, and I couldn't take it anymore. I put my hand under his chin, made him look into my eyes, and said to him, "You are one of the most beautiful people I know. You know that, right? God, you have so much potential and so much good in you that you don't even see. Trust me, I know what it's like to want to leave absolutely everything. I went through a big stage where I was considering ways in which I could do it. Then I remembered there are people who care about me a lot, like I care about you. Don't let those demons win. Because this world would be lost without you. Literally no one has made me think about things like you. And it may not mean much, but you have changed me for the better. I wouldn't be where I am if it weren't for you."
She stays silent because it's easier than seeing everyone's reactions when they realize what she held in.
So we've only known each other for a couple of years, but I feel I've known you my whole life. I've seen you grow. I've watched you change from the guy who couldn't make up his mind, who's feelings changed more than I knew was possible, to the guy you are now. You're everything I knew you were, and know you always will be. I've seen your anger, your battles, your struggles, and your fears. I know you by heart. That doesn't go away. I'm never going to forget you or anything about you. I'm becoming who you are. We've said it before, and I'll say it again. We were meant to be something more than this. I still believe that, with all of my heart. I am still in this. I said I was in for the long haul, and I'm still striving every day for our time. I'm not going down without a fight. I won't give up easy. These feelings are stronger than anything that could try to bring us down. I love you more than I thought I did, to put it simple.
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