Tuesday, May 24

Are you in the game?

I took a chance and followed my heart. It might not have been the smartest decision I've ever made but the end result was worth it all. Do you know why? I got you.

There's a place in me where a part of you will always be a part of me.


Well you got your reasons
And you got your lies
And you got your manipulations
They cut me down to size
Sayin' you love but you don't
You give your love but you won't
-If You Could Only See - Tonic


I have someone who doesn't care that I hate wearing shoes. Who knows that I'm incapable of sitting still and finds it cute and annoying at the same time. Someone who loves that I can't grasp the concept of keeping my room clean and that I refuse to be ladylike. Someone who realizes that half of my decisions take me half an hour to make and I have the right to overreact at any given moment, but that doesn't mean they'll take it calmly. I have someone who knows how completely insane I am, and he doesn't want me any other way.
*mine*


 I don't want to be just another memory.

I wondered what I'd done to deserve her, and after a number of minutes, concluded that I'd done nothing whatsoever. She was in my life without reason. She was there in spite of myself.
*Aweee :)


The first time I looked at you I thought you were gorgeous. I just can't believe that you could find so many things wrong with yourself. So many lil imperfections, but they're barely noticeable. Half the things you hate about yourself are things that I love. You're beautiful, gorgeous, and perfect to me, darling.
*mine*


I can't promise you a relationship without arguments over our differences and trust issues, however, I can promise you that as long as you're trying, I'm staying.

"I'm not sure you love me enough," he said to her as he gently pulled the ring off of her finger. "I do love you!" she replied. "But enough?" he asked. She looked up at him hopelessly as he said, "Look, I'm going to leave. And if you say something to stop me before I go out the door, then you truly want this. If not, then I guess we'll have our answer." He kissed her, and as he stepped away from her she nodded and whispered, "Okay." And she said nothing more as he walked slowly out the door. 


The only trick is never giving more than you are willing to lose.

Saturday, May 21

Would you like you, if you met you?

I would. Usually. :)

Forget what hurt you in the past, but never forget what it taught you.

I wish you would just tell me how you're feeling so we could skip all this bullshit.

Sometimes I wonder, is there anyone out there who is afraid of losing me?


Maybe you're not the guy I'm going to spend the rest of my life with. But I know I wouldn't mind if I did. I know I love you in some way. Maybe you aren't going to mean this much to me for the rest of my life, but you mean this much to me now. And I never want to lose that feeling I get when I see your name pop up on my phone, or when I hear you say my name. Ever.


You don't just automatically love someone. You slowly learn how to trust them, how to start believing in them. You want to be with them to the point where you're jealous of anyone else who gets a little of their time. It gets you mad, but you learn to get past it, because you can't be jealous forever. And then you realize, you don't even feel jealousy anymore because you have this unwavering confidence that this person will never leave you, never betray you and would never pick someone else over you. They make you feel irreplaceable. That's when it hits you. You really do love each other an it's completely unbreakable.


It's never too late to be who you might have been.

Love will remain a mystery, but give me your hand and you will see your heart is keeping time with me.

You might think that I'm a fool for falling over you. So tell me what I can do to prove to you that it's not so hard to do. Give love a try one more time cause you know that I'm on your side.


Your name, forever the name on my lips.
And I do remember the swing of your steps
Life of the party, you're showing off again
And I roll my eyes and then you pull me in
I'm not much for dancing, but for you I did
Cause I love your handshake, meeting my father
I love how you walk with your hands in your pockets
How you kiss me when I was in the middle of saying something
There's not a day I don't miss those rude interruptions
-Last Kiss, Taylor Swift


I have a heart; a heart that's aching to see you smile again.

Saturday, May 14

We fell accidentally in love

She was never happier than when she was lying in his arms, her fingers linked with his.

I was always here for you, even when I wasn't.


There are moments, tiny moments, when you're being completely obnoxious that I think to myself, 'Life would be so much easier and calm without him.' And then I look at you, and I couldn't even imagine a day without you. So yes, you're annoying and it drives me completely crazy. But baby, there's no where else for me. I'd rather lay in your arms annoyed as hell than be perfectly content alone.
*mine*

Today is enough. You don't need forever and always. You don't need promises of days that never come. Today is enough. You don't need the words that cannot possibly be true. Nothing is forever. Nothing lasts for always. Today should always be enough.
*I do believe this to my very core*


I am one of the searchers. There are, I believe, millions of us. We are not unhappy, but neither are we really content. We continue to explore life, hoping to uncover its ultimate secret. We continue to explore ourselves, hoping to understand. We like to walk along the beach. We are drawn by the ocean, taken by its power, its unceasing motion, its mystery and unspeakable beauty. We like forests and mountains, deserts and hidden rivers, and the lonely cities as well. Our sadness is as much a part of our lives as is our laughter. To share our sadness with one we love is perhaps as great a joy as we can know - unless it be to share our laughter.


So what, I've got a smile on. But it's hiding the quiet superstitions in my head. Don't believe me when I say I've got it down.

I don't want a fairytale ending with you. I want to be there to help you face your fears and to help you overcome your failures. I want to give you the kind of love that's not distorted and fabricated, but real, raw, and honest. You're not perfect, and neither am I. But when we're together I can believe that things will always fall into place.


He looked down at the ground, and I couldn't take it anymore. I put my hand under his chin, made him look into my eyes, and said to him, "You are one of the most beautiful people I know. You know that, right? God, you have so much potential and so much good in you that you don't even see. Trust me, I know what it's like to want to leave absolutely everything. I went through a big stage where I was considering ways in which I could do it. Then I remembered there are people who care about me a lot, like I care about you. Don't let those demons win. Because this world would be lost without you. Literally no one has made me think about things like you. And it may not mean much, but you have changed me for the better. I wouldn't be where I am if it weren't for you."

She stays silent because it's easier than seeing everyone's reactions when they realize what she held in.

So we've only known each other for a couple of years, but I feel I've known you my whole life. I've seen you grow. I've watched you change from the guy who couldn't make up his mind, who's feelings changed more than I knew was possible, to the guy you are now. You're everything I knew you were, and know you always will be. I've seen your anger, your battles, your struggles, and your fears. I know you by heart. That doesn't go away. I'm never going to forget you or anything about you. I'm becoming who you are. We've said it before, and I'll say it again. We were meant to be something more than this. I still believe that, with all of my heart. I am still in this. I said I was in for the long haul, and I'm still striving every day for our time. I'm not going down without a fight. I won't give up easy. These feelings are stronger than anything that could try to bring us down. I love you more than I thought I did, to put it simple.

Sunday, May 8

Got no reason, got no shame

If someone can't stop doing things that you don't want them to, it only means that they love those things more than they love you.

You're not my type, but I think that's a good thing. My type doesn't seem to be working out for me.


If we fall in love because someone makes us laugh, what happens when we no longer find them funny? If we fall in love because someone is beautiful, what happens when that beauty fades? If we fall in love because someone can provide for us, what happens when they lose their wealth? Love defies all reasons. When you truly love someone, you can't find a reason. You just do.


Forever is a long, long time and time has a way of changing things.

He lifted his outstretched palm and curled his fingers. "Her hand," he said, "It fit mine."


So there's this boy- we argue a lot. He makes fun of me because I can't stay on the same subject for more than five seconds. He handles me when I'm sad and handles me when I'm mad. I tell him I hate him, and he responds with, 'Well I guess I'll leave then.' Yeah, he's not prince charming, but to me he couldn't be more perfect.


The truth is, sometimes you scare the shit out of me. You make me feel as if I'm not alone. Yet, I know any minute you have the ability to rip that feeling away from me. The truth is, I love you, and that in itself is scary enough.

I'm not going anywhere. This is it for me. You're it for me. I can't pretend to feel any less than I do. I'm sorry, I just can't.


What did it feel like, I wondered, to love someone that much? So much that you couldn't even control yourself when they came close, as if you might just break free of whatever was holding you and throw yourself at them with enough force to easily overwhelm you both.


I had to admire it, that absolute kind of love that couldn't even wait a couple hours. I'd never felt that strongly about anyone. It was nice, this rushing need to say something to someone right this very second. Almost romantic, really. If you liked that sort of thing.

Thursday, May 5

When you reach the bottom it's now or never

The special thing about almost dying is that almost part. It mean you could have, should have, but you didn't. You survived. And fuck, after that, what can't you do?




I love sleeping because sleeping is the only way of escaping the pain that I can't bear when I'm awake.

I just want to see her smile again. I just want her to know that I don't care about the scars.


A wise girl listens but doesn't believe. Kisses, but doesn't fall in love. And leaves before she is left. Until she falls in love.

A lot of people are afraid to say what they want. That's why they don't get what they want.


I believe that sometimes we put ourselves in danger just to see who cares enough to stop us.

I don't want to close my eyes because you might leave when I'm not looking. But I'm afraid to keep them open because I couldn't stand to watch you walk away.


We were fighting, and he grabbed my hand and half of me wanted to scream not to touch me. And half of me wanted to beg him to never let go.

A soul mate is someone who had locks that fit our keys and keys that fit our locks.


When you really matter to someone, that person will always make time for you. No excuses, no lies, and no broken promises.

Sunday, May 1

When I didn't text you back, I wanted you to keep texting me. I wanted you to call me. To show me you cared enough to reach out to me until I broke down and talked to you. I wanted you to fight with me to prove that you'd put up a fight to keep me around.

So if you need me, if you really need me, come and save me.