I want this... Badly

Long Slow Kisses
-Jeff Bates


Hey baby, I guess you're wondering
What I'm doing home so soon
No, I'm not sick
It's just this morning when you told me
You didn't feel like you were the most important thing in my life

And you know what, that broke my heart
So I had to turn around and come back
And tell you what I'm gonna do about it

I'm gonna light the bedroom candles
Take the phone out of the wall
We'll lay around and talk for hours
Or maybe we won't talk at all

I'm gonna resurrect the love
That slipped away from us
And the man you've been missing
Starting with some long, slow kisses

I just wanna let you know how ashamed I am
For making you feel that way, darling
I'm so sorry, I guess I've just been
Spending too much time on making a living
And way too little on making love

But if you can find it in your heart to forgive me
Girl, I swear from this moment on
You'll always know where you stand with me

I'm gonna light the bedroom candles
Take the phone out of the wall
We'll lay around and talk for hours
Or maybe we won't talk at all

I'm gonna resurrect the love
That slipped away from us
And the man you've been missing
And I'm starting with some long, slow kisses

Cause what really matters most
Is you and me this close, feeling no distance
Sharing some long, slow kisses
Sharing some long, slow kisses

I don't wanna close my eyes

That look in your eyes leaves me breathless. The one where I can tell you're thinking about what we used to be and the fun we used to have together. It makes me start to smile. And then my mind fast-forwards to the ending of our relationship. How you screwed all those other girls and brushed off my tearful phone calls, telling me I was just too pathetic. And then... Then, I hate you.
*mine*

When I decided to be with you, I made a choice. And I keep making that choice every day.

She said, "I still love you even though you hurt and betrayed me. But if love were enough, you'd still be here with me."

I look at you, and suddenly I believe in the magic of romance. The kind of magic where one person's smile will set a spark off in your heart. You make every worry disappear. I feel like when people look at us together, they can believe in that magic too. They can see the way we tease each other, the way we're not all over each other, and the way we're just hanging out and yet still see that we're crazy about each other. We're different, sure, but we're just as in love as everyone else.
*mine*

Have some fire. Be unstoppable. Be a force of nature. Be better than anyone here, and don't give a damn what anyone thinks. There are no teams here, no buddies. You're on your own. Be on your own. 

My world crumbles when you're not here.
*my boy*

I've always had a really strong feeling that out there somewhere is someone who would not just put up with my personality, but would actively like it. He would encourage me. He'd be somebody who doesn't enjoy the neutral beige of my mother's decorating. He'd be somebody who likes neon plaid. Polka dots. Pink with red. I knew it would be a long wait, but that's okay. I'm a patient girl.

You've given me a reason to live. Like, I can't even explain it. I always thought you fell in love with somebody once and went from there, but every time we talk, every time I see you, every time I fucking think about you, I fall in love with you all over again. I love you. You're the best thing that's ever happened to me.
*my boy*

It's always been you over him, ever since I talked to you for the first time. I knew you were different.

"He wasn't a fling. He wasn't revenge. I fell in love with him. That doesn't go away because I decided to stay with you."
*mine*

Cause I was there when you said forever and always...

The brick walls are not there to keep us out. The brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something. The brick walls are there to stop the people who don't want it badly enough.

We go to sleep, I think everything's fine. We wake up, and you're just a little bit crazy.

My love for you has no strings attached. I love you for free.

What if I fall and hurt myself? Would you know how to fix me? What if I went and lost myself? Would you know where to find me? If I forget who I am would you please remind me? Cause without you things go hazy.

I wanted to be the person he told things to. I wanted him to think I was pretty. I wanted him to be reminded of me by stuff I liked - the color green and pink lemonade and friendship bracelets - and I wanted him to miss me when we were apart. I wanted him to feel, when we were lying in bed together, like he couldn't imagine anywhere better.

I love it when he grabs me by the waist.

You mean the world to me and I hope I make that obvious every day.

Why can't I be that happily ever after person? Why can't I believe in that?

I'm scared too. So let's just leap, okay?

No matter how angry I am, I always say, "It's okay." No matter how disappointed I am, I always say, "I'm fine." Why? Because I love you.