I want this... Badly

Long Slow Kisses
-Jeff Bates


Hey baby, I guess you're wondering
What I'm doing home so soon
No, I'm not sick
It's just this morning when you told me
You didn't feel like you were the most important thing in my life

And you know what, that broke my heart
So I had to turn around and come back
And tell you what I'm gonna do about it

I'm gonna light the bedroom candles
Take the phone out of the wall
We'll lay around and talk for hours
Or maybe we won't talk at all

I'm gonna resurrect the love
That slipped away from us
And the man you've been missing
Starting with some long, slow kisses

I just wanna let you know how ashamed I am
For making you feel that way, darling
I'm so sorry, I guess I've just been
Spending too much time on making a living
And way too little on making love

But if you can find it in your heart to forgive me
Girl, I swear from this moment on
You'll always know where you stand with me

I'm gonna light the bedroom candles
Take the phone out of the wall
We'll lay around and talk for hours
Or maybe we won't talk at all

I'm gonna resurrect the love
That slipped away from us
And the man you've been missing
And I'm starting with some long, slow kisses

Cause what really matters most
Is you and me this close, feeling no distance
Sharing some long, slow kisses
Sharing some long, slow kisses

I don't wanna close my eyes

That look in your eyes leaves me breathless. The one where I can tell you're thinking about what we used to be and the fun we used to have together. It makes me start to smile. And then my mind fast-forwards to the ending of our relationship. How you screwed all those other girls and brushed off my tearful phone calls, telling me I was just too pathetic. And then... Then, I hate you.
*mine*

When I decided to be with you, I made a choice. And I keep making that choice every day.

She said, "I still love you even though you hurt and betrayed me. But if love were enough, you'd still be here with me."

I look at you, and suddenly I believe in the magic of romance. The kind of magic where one person's smile will set a spark off in your heart. You make every worry disappear. I feel like when people look at us together, they can believe in that magic too. They can see the way we tease each other, the way we're not all over each other, and the way we're just hanging out and yet still see that we're crazy about each other. We're different, sure, but we're just as in love as everyone else.
*mine*

Have some fire. Be unstoppable. Be a force of nature. Be better than anyone here, and don't give a damn what anyone thinks. There are no teams here, no buddies. You're on your own. Be on your own. 

My world crumbles when you're not here.
*my boy*

I've always had a really strong feeling that out there somewhere is someone who would not just put up with my personality, but would actively like it. He would encourage me. He'd be somebody who doesn't enjoy the neutral beige of my mother's decorating. He'd be somebody who likes neon plaid. Polka dots. Pink with red. I knew it would be a long wait, but that's okay. I'm a patient girl.

You've given me a reason to live. Like, I can't even explain it. I always thought you fell in love with somebody once and went from there, but every time we talk, every time I see you, every time I fucking think about you, I fall in love with you all over again. I love you. You're the best thing that's ever happened to me.
*my boy*

It's always been you over him, ever since I talked to you for the first time. I knew you were different.

"He wasn't a fling. He wasn't revenge. I fell in love with him. That doesn't go away because I decided to stay with you."
*mine*

Cause I was there when you said forever and always...

The brick walls are not there to keep us out. The brick walls are there to give us a chance to show how badly we want something. The brick walls are there to stop the people who don't want it badly enough.

We go to sleep, I think everything's fine. We wake up, and you're just a little bit crazy.

My love for you has no strings attached. I love you for free.

What if I fall and hurt myself? Would you know how to fix me? What if I went and lost myself? Would you know where to find me? If I forget who I am would you please remind me? Cause without you things go hazy.

I wanted to be the person he told things to. I wanted him to think I was pretty. I wanted him to be reminded of me by stuff I liked - the color green and pink lemonade and friendship bracelets - and I wanted him to miss me when we were apart. I wanted him to feel, when we were lying in bed together, like he couldn't imagine anywhere better.

I love it when he grabs me by the waist.

You mean the world to me and I hope I make that obvious every day.

Why can't I be that happily ever after person? Why can't I believe in that?

I'm scared too. So let's just leap, okay?

No matter how angry I am, I always say, "It's okay." No matter how disappointed I am, I always say, "I'm fine." Why? Because I love you.

It all comes down to love

Dear guy that keeps asking me if I wanna bang,
Yeah I wanna bang... your head against the wall.
Sincerely, I have standards.

What I meant to say was, sometimes I stare up at the sky and ask God to stop wasting my time and just kill me. But I figured you didn't want to hear that.

I don't flirt anymore. I notice other guys, sure, but I don't flirt with them. I don't feel the need or the desire to anymore. I have all the flirting I need with you. I love you, and that means I don't want to flirt with anyone else. So it hurts when I know you flirt with other girls. You love me, I know that. You wouldn't be here if you didn't. But I just don't understand your desire to flirt anymore.
*mine*

You have shoved your feelings aside for so long. I'm asking you to claim them.

Love has its limits. If love were enough, everything would be different.

If I die young, bury me in satin, lay me down on a bed of roses. Sink me in the river at dawn and send me away with the words of a love song.

A penny for my thoughts, no, I'll sell them for a dollar. They're worth so much more after I'm a goner. And maybe then you'll hear the words I've been saying. Funny, when you're dead how people start listening.

I've never been anything but tough. All my edges have always been rough.

Why can't I be that happily ever after person? Why can't I believe in that?

So you know what I mean when I say that I don't think anyone who falls in love has a choice? You're just pulled to that person like a true north, whether it's good for you or bound to break your heart.

I don't want to settle for 'good, not great'

This is what I was trying to say the other night...

Remind Me - Brad Paisley, Carrie Underwood

We didn't care if people stared
We'd make out in a crowd somewhere
Somebody'd tell us to get a room
It's hard to believe that was me and you

Now we keep saying that we're okay
But I don't want to settle for 'good, not great'
I miss the way that it felt back then
I wanna feel that way again

Been so long that you'd forget
The way I used to kiss your neck
Remind me, remind me
So on fire, so in love
Way back when we couldn't get enough
Remind me, remind me

Remember the airport, dropping me off
We were kissing goodbye and we couldn't stop
I felt bad cause you missed your flight
But that meant we had one more night

Do you remember how it used to be?
We'd turn out the lights and we didn't just sleep
Remind me, baby remind me
Oh, so on fire, so in love
That look in your eyes that I miss so much
Remind me, baby remind me

I wanna feel that way
Yeah, I wanna hold you close
Oh, if you still love me
Don't just assume I know

Do you remember the way it felt?
You mean back when we couldn't control ourselves?
Remind me, yeah, remind me
All those things that you used to do
That made me fall in love with you
Remind me, oh baby, remind me

Yeah, you'd wake up in my old t-shirt
All those mornings I was late for work
Remind me, oh baby, remind me

Wouldn't have guessed

So the other day, I'm on my way to pick up my brother and I can't find a radio station that wasn't playing commercials almost constantly. I knew I had a country station on my presets, and figured that at least it wasn't commercials. As I tried to block out the banjos and other various "country" instruments, I realized that the lyrics to most country songs are really, really romantic. They're pretty cheesy at times, but romance is sometimes cheesy, right? Me not being a huge romantic myself (or as some people would tell you, I wouldn't know romance if it bit me on the ass) I was surprised that I even thought these things. So I listened to some more country today and sure enough, I was overwhelmed by how adorable and sweet some of these songs are. So here are the lyrics to one of the sweetest songs I've heard in a while.

Come Back Song - Darius Rucker

I woke up again this morning
And wouldn't you know it, pouring rain
I went and burned a pot of coffee
And like us, I poured it down the drain

Cause I didn't know I needed you so
And letting you go was wrong
And baby, I know you got your radio on
So this is my, "my bad, come back" song

I know I said I wouldn't miss you
But now I'm saying I'm a fool
You're on the feel-good side of leaving
And I'm the backside of a mule

Cause I didn't know I needed you so
And letting you go was wrong
And baby, I know you got your radio on
So this is my, "so sad, come back" song

And now I'm laying down without you
In this king size empty bed
And I wish I had my arms around you
But I'll just dream of you instead

Cause I didn't know I needed you so
And letting you go was wrong
And baby, I know you got your radio on
So this is my, "get packed, come back"

Hey, I didn't know I needed you so
And letting you go
And letting you go was wrong
And baby, I know you got your radio on
So this is my, "my bad, come back" song

I know I said I wouldn't miss you
I said I wouldn't miss you girl
Come on now
This is my, "my bad, come back" song



So yeah. I think that sending lyrics or a song to someone is just as romantic as bringing them flowers. Just saying. :D

If you miss me, prove it

You know, there are some days when I really feel like this could work. Like you and I are finally going to get it right. Then there are days like today, when you make me want to tear my fucking hair out.

I wish it could be simple. Like a retro pop song, "I want you to want me," boom. End of story. We all live happily ever after. But it's never really like that, is it?

Right now, it's about to storm. It's been crazy humid for a couple days, and it's going to be intense. Prolly. And the only thing I can think is that I want to be out there when the downpour begins. I want you to be there with me. I want to ask you if you'd like to dance in the rain with me. I'd like to show you what letting go really is. What it feels like. I want to run out while it's pouring down rain and spin around in it. I want to get soaking wet and look back to see you smiling at me, calling me crazy and telling me that you hope I brought a change of underwear. But we won't be spinning in the rain tonight. Why? Because you're busy. You're tired. We have problems, real, big problems, and you're running.
*mine*

I looked hot today. You missed it.

Never go to bed mad. Stay up and fight.

I make mistakes. Big ones. But I rarely make them twice.

When I decided to be with you, I made a choice. And I keep making that choice every day.